I see the pain and suffering in the world and that brings my heart at a standstill;
I often tend to wonder how could this be possible.
On one side I see the happy, chirpiness of morning and the glory of the day;
And on the very immediate side the withering, gloomy glaze (sadness and feeling of unhappiness and suffering).
I cannot help but think what role I can play;
When I know what I must do and where my heart stays.
I feel so torn apart with almost the opposites I do;
And then I turn to my Lord, my savior for I know his healing is true.
Not only do I want to be healed from the pain in my heart;
But also seek his help to overcome my obstacles and set my soul apart (free).
My confusions are so intensified and my hands provide little support;
my voice so meek to do what the heart desires , for fears ever so more ( fear of losing- power, opportunities, possessions, false pride).
I often sit and wonder if 'He' knows my heart;
why does then he not come and set me apart (free).
I often think of myself so weak in the dark;
that when time of decision comes I fall short (cannot gather the strength to walk the right path).
My responsibilities take priority and I hide behind those;
leaving my heart's desire at remorse;
I often tend to ponder how would life be if I went with those (my heart's desires).
I really seek an answer;
the opportunity of which is unknown;
and I pray to the Lord each day;
that he may open those doors.
I want to help diminish the pain;
the pain an orphan child feels;
For I understand what God's love brings;
and want to share it with thee.
I realized in my journey with him;
that he stands so close.
That my voice was probably still far enough;
and he performed his miracles even before (even before concerns were voiced).
Like the sun sets and the stars begin to rise, I feel the silence in my heart…….. Sitting alone by the corner of the house I begin to feel demolished all of a start … As if a new beginning I seek with every phase that passes of the night, And I so remember the loved ones close to my heart.. Not telling them a word and not being able to express what I wish I could have said, I walk away miles apart….. Hoping; they know what unspoken words could mean and what I felt in my heart.. I walk the night in Search of words to tell them that they will always be part (of my life)… And as the night grows and the stars shine brighter I always wish they recognize me with that………. That no matter where I may lay hidden of late .... but will be back to share the path (their life… their sky) I hope I can say a zillion things today but alas my Mind runs a scan of them all, Just like Autumn passes and Spring aborts… and years pass by and we can lay our hands on just on ...
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